"I'll Pack My
Suitcase In An Hour" is a poem from this poetry collection
describing the memory of being given a bride doll as a child:
the shattering dream of being a good wife and mother. The
author portrays the woman that she becomes and looks back
as she is exiting her marriage/"let me look back in a
blinded moment at the coloring box door ." The poet stresses
the disenchantment with life's reality in the real world of
relationships further revealed in "A Letter To Eva,"
and the unexpected support she receives from the woman who
takes her husband/"I tell him not to forget you,/we are
sisters at the mercy of wearing a dress."
There is a life-long odyssey into understanding as to where
she could find answers. What went wrong is revealed in memories
of "T.V. Show"/"I watched as all the imaginary
scenes were rehearsed in verse." The poet leads her character
into another moment of thought/"I've surmised somebody
was all wet, or surely depressed."
Again and again the author details the impacts of handed-down
family "scripts" and values in "If I Had Known"/"Whatever
happened to my dreams, those unconscious decisions based on
Some women have a sense of making all the wrong moves in life,
only to realize through daily thought it's never to late to
regain self pride in being a woman, and find a man who truly
lovers her with respect, as expressed in "I'm Still At
Your Elbow"/"You must forgive me for my indolent
ways, and accept me as I am."
The author shows help for a "loose" woman who is
fooled into changing her life outlook, as in "In A Divided
Moment"/"the beggar glanced in the window of my
vision, and he did look wise in his sweet trickery."
These poems encompass a feeling of helplessness on one hand,
and yet show unbridled strength and resilience in the face
of memories or values that had impact in the formative years.
Many of the emotions come to the surface in later life, as
expressed in "Green Chair"/"There's a chair
for comfort although distraught for thought."